'In an era of smart phones and stupid people'

Humans are strange beings. We are always running after what we think we need, taking for granted what we already have. As the first world develops scientifically, inventing more gadgets, it hasn't made us in a more developed state. It has done the complete opposite. Folks nowadays prefer staying home looking through their newsfeed, finding out what's going on in peoples' lives instead of going out into the world and interacting with those said people who they spend their time wallowing after online. The World Wide Web has become an infectious disease. Upon visiting fellow friends, family, colleagues, before asking them about how they are doing, you ask them for the password for their WiFi. You sit between a crowd of people, and more than a third of them have their mobiles in their hands updating their statuses and checking in. And once that is done, they continue to check their phones periodically every time it rings or vibrates, expecting a notification from someone, anyone, just someone to let them know they care, they 'liked' my picture, commented on my status, anything, something to just feel recognized, admired. To quote someone very wise, we are in an era of smart phones and stupid people. The more we move forward with technology, our social skills, our ethics, our manners, our mindset, it all deteriorates. With every step technology makes forward, human beings are three steps behind. Beings have become superficial. No longer caring for what really matters, filling their emptiness with materialistic things. Letting the internet, media, affect their way of thinking. People have become brainwashed, believing anything that is posted online without having it be verified by actual sources. As quickly as technology arises in our daily lives, people will not know the value of life until it is demolished. Everything in life has positive and negative sides, if technology was used in a smart and safe manner, it would do amazing wonders for the world and it's people, it just needs an extra push, that extra effort of good natured people, to teach, inspire and encourage everyone about the good they can bring to the world.

Intuition is a funny thing

I'm sure we all have had that feeling(or a vibe as some people like to call it)that something is going to happen,whether good or bad, or you forgot something but you just don't know what. When they first meet someone they can tell if they like them and vise versa. When you are over stepping your boundaries, you get that feeling that you need to stop. Now, some may call it their conscience, others just a vibe, others common sense. I guess it differs from each and every person but still I'm sure every being can say they have come across these feelings. Anyway, I sometimes get these vibes that bring me down and make me feel miserable but they're not always right so then I feel disappointed with myself that I let these feelings take precious time away from me that I won't ever get back. I try to ignore them best I can, but when these feelings are insistent I fear it's better I do listen to them or at least take them into consideration. What is even harder is when there are too many emotions, too many vibes, too many feelings I just can't sort out or figure out what to do with them which stresses me out and makes things worse. So you ask what I do then? I write, I spend time with those I love, I call someone I miss, I get myself caught up in someone else to forget my distress, and you know what? It helps, it works. So the question remains do you follow these feelings or not? More importantly is it your brain or your heart giving you this vibe and is it reliable? Can you trust your heart or your mind? You would think you should be able to trust both but we all know that's rare. Life is temporary, make the best out of it, take out anything that causes you stress and add more things that bring you joy, contentment and peace.

Robots on this stage called Life

Life is a funny thing when you take time to think of it. It's as if we're all robots, following the rituals society has set for us. You're born, pampered, taught by parents, teachers and society what you should do and what you shouldn't do,spend half your life in school, struggle to find yourself, go to college, work, accomplish the goals you set for yourself, get married, have kids, watch your kids do the same, grow old, and eventually die hoping your name will be remembered and carried on. But is that really all life is about? I don't think so. Life appeared to be the easiest thing to us when we were children, little did we know, reality would soon set in and we would no longer see anything easy about it. One of the toughest battles anyone probably has to encounter, is the battle within themselves. Trying to find yourself, find purpose in your life, give your life meaning, whether keeping yourself busy with education, or trying to find a spouse to make your life complete. Achieving your goals is anything but easy, but it is worth it in the long run. Seeing a degree being handed to you the day of your graduation after spending practically most of your life in school, that is an accomplishment. Settling down, making a family, building a home, raising well-mannered children, that is also an accomplishment, and anything but easy. Forcing yourself out of bed everyday to build yourself, even working at a minimum wage job, trying to keep yourself away from the troubles of life, that is an accomplishment. Society shouldn't have to set for us standards some of us are just unable to meet. Not just unable, some just don't want to. School isn't for everyone, marriage isn't for everyone, 'to each his own.' Basicially, everyone shouldn't take life so seriously, no one gets out alive anyway.

Facebook? what exactly is the purpose of it?

So every few years or so a new social network comes about, and is the new trend that everyone has to have to see what the big deal is about,right? Dirst we had Myspace("A place for friends"), made a big fuss over who was on our top 8, what polls to fill out, what pictures to put up, who to have on our webpages, what color, what graphic to have on our profiles, it was the best thing, none of us had seen anything like it, at least in my case, it was a whole new world for me. After Myspace started to die out, Facebook came out, I am not even sure which came first, this is all from my personal experience. So now we all threw out Myspace, and Facebook has overtook our lives, whether we like to admit it or not, it is everyone's favorite kid. It's the first thing you check when you wake up in the morning and the last thing you put down before you sleep, right or wrong? And nothing is wrong with having an obsession, Facebook isn't a bad thing, it can be depending on what you use it for. In my personal view, it's a great place to reconnect with old friends, who would've ever kept in touch with a classmate they went to school with in third grade? It's a great feeling reminiscing and reconnecting with great people who left an impact in your life whether you realized it or not. How else would people remember your birthday? Let's hope the only reason your dad remembers your birthday is because Facebook reminded him. Anyway, today I was in a rut, I wasn't feeling so great about myself, and a dear friend of mine gave me a wake up call, and not only made me feel like my problems were insignificant, but not really problems compared to what's going on in the world around us. Sometimes we get so warped in our own worlds, our own problems, we forget we are just one person, one small person in a very huge world. There are people around the world who have no shoes, we cry about having not enough shoes, what about those who cry because they have no feet? I cry because I haven't finished my college degree, what about those that don't have the ability to even study elementary school? My friend pointed out that we don't know how lucky we are. We spend more time complaining than we do being grateful, and that needs to stop. Everyone has good days and bad days, but that doesn't mean it will last forever. How would you know how great something is if you didn't have something bad to compare it to.

What happens to Cinderella after her "happily ever after"?

Has anyone ever wondered what happens after the fairy tale ends? We get the glimpse of the fairy tale, the struggle, the happily ever after..and then what happens? Well, first let me say, Disney set high standards for probably every little girl world wide. As beautiful and romantic as the fairy tales are, we soon find out that's not really how life is. We grow up, we move on, and we start a new life, somehow hoping deep down we can grasp that fairy tale. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that we can't live our own fairy tales, I'm simply saying, why follow or live by someone else's dream when you can create your own? Each and every fairy tale basically has the same idea, a damsel in distress, searching for a meaning in life, after struggle and drama, Prince Charming soon stumbles on and gives her life meaning. As I'm sure we've all figured out by now, life isn't that easy. And when you think of it, why would you want it to be so plain and simple? You truly don't know how great something is until you've tried something horrible. Maybe there's a reason Disney doesn't reveal what happens, maybe it's all an illusion. Maybe Disney wants to leave us guessing what could have possibly happened after? Anyway, what does it really matter anyway, Cinderella is a fictional character, but do you know who is real? You. Me. Our lives, our fate, is in our hands, we aren't being filmed, we aren't on stage acting, unless you consider yourself an actor on the stage of this world. Basically what I'm saying is sometimes in life you should be greedy, why just shoot for a fairy tale, when you can create the most beautiful life for you, whether single or married, God gave us a free will for a reason, and in that we can live in harmony, peace and all the happiness in the world.

Quotes that should indeed be quoted...

“Nothing is permanent in this wicked world, not even our troubles.” ― Charles Chaplin "When I'm good, I'm better. When I'm better, I'm the best." "There is good, bad and ugly in this world, what you focus on the most is what will come to you." -ME, HSA 'When life knocks you down on your knees, remember you're in the best position to pray.' "Youth is wasted on the young." - George Bernard Shaw You're half way there if you already believe in yourself! #FightCancer #Neverletitwin "That voice in your head is not your conscience it is your ego." "If you can't stand up, stand out." KEEP CALM AND FIGHT ON. "Don't place your happiness in the hands of someone else, you are your own source of happiness. Don';t wait for it to come to you, find it within yourself." ME- HSA "Remembering is easy, it's forgetting some moments that I can't stand when they come to mind."

ETA #3

ETA#3 Nov.28/12 4:53a.m. I've decided to make a lot of choices and changes in my life. Most were hard but I believe in the end it will enable me to have a better future, God willing. I never believed it was okay for one to be selfish but sometimes in life, especially if it's for the sake of the wellness of your health, then it's perfectly fine to put yourself first. I don't believe you can love anyone if you don't love yourself first. More important than loving yourself and others is loving our creator, Allah(SWT). I was one to put people before me, to give up everything for everyone to be happy before me. But then it wasn't a two way street, very few thought the same as me, very few were willing to see me happy and took advantage of my kindness. I've learned the hard way some people are just not meant to be in my life no matter how much it hurt. It is impossible for someone to step into your life whether for a few days,months or years without leaving some imprint in your life. No one said life would be easy and elhamdullilah I've seen everything that's not easy but I am thankful, all my trials made me a stronger person. I don't believe anything can knock me down. Allah is great and He loves me and I love Him but I need to love Him more. He has blessed me in too many ways but I focus on the bad and my vision is blurred from all the good I have.

LIst. List. List. BE. Do. Become what YOU want.

To do Change me for the good of me Be a better Muslim More Quran less music Relax breathe Don't stress Don't worry Email journal entries to myself Learn from mistakes I did and others around me Don't be so trustworthy I am not alone,I have Allah Be modest,polite, kind and sincere Set goals(weight,school,career..etc.) Get license study online Learn something new everyday Replace old, traumatizing memories with new better,irreplaceable ones Cherish every minute with Islam Be giving and generous Love Allah and our Prophet more Love myself Take care of myself (soul,hair,body) Be healthy Be fit Have one junk day a week then two then a month Laugh Live Rely on Allah and only Him Pray on time, pray slower Spend more time talking to Allah Be creative Think BIG Have fun Don't take life too seriously, no one makes it out alive anyway;-)

Venting...

ETA venting... really annoyed nowhere to go nothing to do seriously not liking that there's nowhere I belong I don't ask for much well maybe I do but I just want to belong just want to be I'm at a loss for words

ETA#1

ETA#1 March 17th, 2013 I need a break. Please Allah show me the way. Show me where I belong and with who. Place me in the hands of someone whose heart is close to you, who will give me everything and keep me happy, who loves me for me and doesn't try to change me. I hate thinking the way I do. I hate feeling everyone is after me. Everyone wants bad for me. I wish good for everyone. Why can't people be like me? SOme say they understand me, but they really don't. Most times people say what they think you want to hear, at times that may be the truth, but it's better to be burned by the truth than to be overjoyed by a lie. I do favors out of the goodness of my heart. I try to my best to help...I do what I can i have insecurities. I may have OCD,I don't know...maybe if i saw a psychiatrist they would put me on even more medciation to conform me to the so called norm of" society." i need a break. ya rab malee ghairak ya elahy inta jahee. your confused one HSA