ETA: Entries to Allah

Besides my random writing in my journal, I started to write entries in my notes on my Iphone. I named them Entries to Allah, I felt it was a fitting name considering most of the time I was talking to Him. This made me feel like I was much closer to him, although I didn't need to write it, or type it anywhere, He can sense me, feel me, read me and knows what I will do before I do it, I was very glad to have another outlet, another habit I could adapt and bring into my life to keep myself busy. I wrote a few entries and e-mailed them to myself so I could keep them for the future. I really would like to publish a book, maybe more than one. I have countless entries everywhere, since I could write, whether in a journal, diary or even e-mail drafts and entries. One day I hope I can put them all together, as sort of compiled text of everything I went through, how I felt, what I did, and see how others see me. I don't usually get bored because I spend my time over thinking and plotting and wondering and wishing and hoping and especially planning. If I haven't mentioned it before, I believe I have really bad OCD, even when I was hospitalized,with a bed alarm on, (because I was at risk for falling because of my medication), I would get up and tidy up around my room. If that's not OCD, I don't know what is. Anyway, how ironic is it, that in my journal, my writing is all over the place? I don't write on the lines or straight, I write across the page diagonally and upside down and in many different colors. I guess because it's for my eyes only, it's okay if it's not completely perfect, even though to me it felt right that way. Maybe one day I'll post one of my ETA's.